ETERNAL FEELINGS

Today, everything went wrong my feelings are blurred...

The way I wanted to be was like if it was not supposed to...

The one that I wanted to see will never want to be,

I have been feeling some changes and some vibrations...

A certain vibration that tingles my corpse.

Corpse now because I am dead,

It was what I mostly feared,

Neither the treason nor the truth...

Even worst the solitude.

Solitude reigning in my soul again...

The dark blurry vision of not being able to be...

The shadowy path that lingers in my life...

Like an eternal demon just waiting to conquer.

My abundant soul...

I just do not know,

What to feel?

So confused and lost with no light in my path.

I know that what was there,

Should never be...

Regardless cannot be...

Nor deciding to change.

But the feeling of living,

The eternal love that consumes our souls,

Is what I felt...

I had not felt that in so long,

That I hate to remember...

Treason or fate,

Don’t know which one was it,

Love or lust?

Don’t know...

Which one to keep?

My soul points the fate...

My hearts chooses the love.

I have never been the greatest lover,

The heart shows more...

More than what the soul reflects.

The ridiculous fights,

The extreme jealousy,

The never ending desire...

The always wanting to share...

How strange would it be?

When will it just dissipate?

Not wanting to let it dissolve...

With the anger of wanting and desiring,

I must resist my desires...

I must control my feelings...

Keep my temper...

I have finally found what I had eternally seeked...

It has scattered in my own hands,

I wanted but, you turned away...

You don’t remember,

But I do...

You never even tried!